Remember
back when life meant sleeping in until your little heart desired, eating the
cereal with the highest sugar count, leaving the house in the morning to play
with neighborhood kids only to return at dinner and laying your head down at
night without a care in the world.
Ahhhh. . .looking back, life seemed so easy. Each day I walked confidently knowing love
surrounded my every moment. I felt
protected as a child, never lacking for anything, encouraged by a mother’s word
and strengthened by a father’s discipline.
Through the years, circumstances began to break my protection, creating
an emptiness I did not know how to fill.
Words from the world began to quiet my mother’s and consume my
heart. My vulnerability and desire to
fit in caused me to push aside any discipline from my father and do as others
desired. All I learned pushed to the
wayside. . .and even worse, I walked insecurely feeling unaccepted, unloved and
unworthy.
Then
came a feeling I never really felt before; an indescribable joy overflowing in
my heart. I met a guy. The word love entered my vocabulary
again. He was handsome, caring, fun,
smart and confident. As I pursued a relationship
with him, I found confidence again. I
felt protected under his care. I never
lacked for anything. His words
encouraged me to take care of myself, find joy in each day and be proud to be
Sheree. We walked through life hand in
hand. And guess what? NOTHING else mattered. I could have the hardest day one could
imagine; yet, my heart continued to shine and my face smiled knowing I was
loved. Life was great. . .
I
continued to feel loved by this guy and he held a place in my heart. But, life began to get harder and harder and
then even harder. Although his love and
encouragement continued, I changed due to the pressures of this world. His love just wasn’t enough to heal the inner
wounds I experienced. I desired
something more. After trying worldly
“things” to heal and numb the pain, I realized these were only temporary. The pain kept returning; so, I reached for
more “things” which only proved temporary as well.
Along
the way, I failed to see all the angels God continually placed in my life to
plant seeds. One seed at a time, being
watered here and there, began to grow with each experience. Until one day, I realized what was missing,
what would ultimately heal the wounds.
NOTHING OF this world could do the trick. No matter how hard or long I tried, those
“things” just would not work.
Then
came a feeling I never felt before; an indescribably joy and peace overflowing
in my heart. I met this Guy. I learned the TRUE meaning of love. I discovered His characteristics: Wonderful
Counselor, Healer, Protector, Artist, Coach, Teacher and a Father. As I pursued a relationship with Him, I found
a different kind of confidence. This
confidence did not look to what I could do or how I looked to feel worthy or
loved. Nope, this confidence stood firm
on Truth; Truth that I am a child of the one True King. He created me wonderfully and exactly how He
planned so I could carry out my purpose this side of Heaven. I never lacked for anything. Reading
That
was the beginning of a NEW LIFE! I
continued to feel loved by this Guy. And
just when I thought life had thrown me every curve ball possible; life became
even tougher. The enemy stepped up his
game. I had a new Coach now and the
enemy realized the power behind this team.
So, as I continued daily renewing my life and changing my old ways (or
at least try really hard), the enemy kept throwing curve balls. He would try to get me to go for his little
schemes so to diminish my faith and give up.
Even
though I am further along the path, Satan still works each day to win. I have realized my Coach already won the game
for me. What I must do is believe that
no matter what comes in life, faith and the confidence found years ago will see
me through. I am not where I need to be:
I continue to struggle with food, looks, worth, perfectionism, love and relaxing
just to enjoy life. BUT, I am not where
I used to be. My Father has me in His
arms and grows me a little more each day.
His love never fails nor ceases. He teaches me the true meaning of love
each and every day in various ways. He
replaces those worldly “things” with His Truth each time the enemy tries to
sneak them back into my life. Thank you
God for the love you provide each day.
Nothing else matters! I am Your
Child. . .
You
can have all this too. See sin for what
it is, go to God with all of it and lay it at the cross! God’s arms remain open for you. Put old self behind and allow a new life to
begin. All are welcome on His Team! Come join me, I would love to walk through
this life as your teammate!
Keep
praying harder than the devil can work.
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